Heartbreaks and ashtrays

Zico Anis,

almost 2 weeks had passed since you left me with severe heartbreaks,

i'm lying if i said i don't miss you,

i'm lying if i told you i will not hate you.

I seems okay, i smile a lot, laugh the most but deep down,

i hurt the most.

The scar you left and empty space in my heart is not 100% cure.

I still remember our first date, i wait for you for 2 hours straight without any complains,

i guess you didn't realize how special you are to me..

and our second date,

at Taman Banjaran crocker,

the way you look at me with your beautiful brown eyes,

i'll melt to the ground, you know..

Remember how we used to pinch each other and how you make my manly voice out when you pinch my arms?

hahaha.. I miss that moment so bad, my dear..

the last hug i gave you before i get out of your car..

remember that?? how could you?

How could you just forget the sweet memories of ours?

And now, i can officially say that i forgive you with all my heart..

even though you didn't say sorry to me,

i know you feel bad for leaving me too..

i knew you so well..

Just 2++ months but you gave me so much to cherish..

Now, no more that someone special that will wish you happy monthsary every 21st..

I hope you still remember that date because i know, i will never forget it..

Thank you for letting me came in your life for a short terms, 

and thank you for making me realize how jerk you are..

Someday, i will find someone special that will hold my hand when we walk side by side,

someone who will hug me from behind to surprise me,

someone who will wait for me, instead of me who will be waiting,

someone who will wait till 12 midnight just to call me and wish happy monthsary.

one thing for sure, that person is not you..

Goodbye forever, my dear Zico

xoxo,

the girl who loves you with all her hearts.