My 20 wishlist for christmas

It's october and i know its still early for me to say this but i do have 

wishlist of what i want for christmas.

December is coming faster than we ever imagine, so..

buckle up!!

15 things i want:

1) Urban Decay Naked palette

2) I want a new phone, Samsung Galaxy III

3) Bohemian dress <3

4) Victoria Secret's perfume

5) Mango t-shirt

6) Etude House makeup set

7) a huge/ gigantic/ enormous teddy bear

8) new pair of heels

9) new hair colour

10) Dermalogica's products

11) A driving license

12) All mnm's blouse, peplums, and chiffon blouse

13) new phone case

14) a cd full of my favourite songs of all time

15) A new laptop

5 non-things that i want

1) family business to run smoothly

2) Good health for my parents and grandparents

3) my sister's happiness

4) get accept by SPA8, as a medical assistant

5) someone special for me to share the happiness of christmas

May God bless me and all of my wish, i know that all of this is almost impossible but i hope some of them will become a reality. AMEN to that !

Kiss and make out

Hello my blog,

its been awhile huh..

so, today, another personal and private sharing..

I'm gonna talk about how and why me and my besties get back together again..

If you follow me since the beginnings, you will know that we've been fight and argue about some stupid randoms shits,

and yes, we haven't talk for more than a half year..

yup.. this shit serious..

we ignore each other until we forgot the reason we fighting for..

so, to make things clear,. i humbly add her on Wechat and swallow my ego to say sorry to her..

its because i miss her and i need some peace, we are family and there's no reason for us to hate each other,

past is past.. whats important now is my future..

after this, some idiots will judge me for swallowing my own spits, but i don't care..

It's my choice, it's my life..

try spending a day walking in my shoes, then you'll know how miserable my life is,

and how hard i have to survive a day without pain..

all i wanna say is, 

you can talk anything about me, i don't give a damn..

remember, God sees everything..

Update with me

Hello, its been awhile since i updated my Blog.

Today, I'm not gonna share any tips on how or what,

Today, i'm just gonna share about my personal life,

what have been on my mind, what have been bothering me for the past few days.

It's hard for me to say what's on my mind because no one's there to listen to me,

I cried but no one sees my tears,

I plead, but no one understands.. I know, its worthless if i wrote all this on my Blog but hey,

I feel a little burden had been lift from my shoulder.

So, the past few days, i dreamt about my ex,

I thought i've moved on but i guess i was wrong all the time,

I'm still hoping that some fine day he will find me,

dreaming about him, about how he used to love me

kills me deep inside.

Yesterday, by coincidence, i accidently walk pass him.

I didn't realize at first but my sister told me,

i got shivers all over me and cold sweats running down my forehead..

my hands shaking, but my sister told me to calm the fuck down so i did..

i pretending not seeing him, i laugh at my sisters, faking a smiles so he thought i was happy.

Seriously, i feel like a part of me was die at that time, 

I admit it, I miss you so bad.

I have to act like i'm cool and put my egos up high so that you realize what you've lost.

I lose my mood after you walk.

Suddenly, an unexpectedly text that i've been waiting for my whole life.

YES!!! a text from you, my dear.

I guess me and my sister's plans finally worked.

I act ego, like always

and i can feel that you still care and love me.

That last texts, you said Bye to me and ask me to always take care.

I hope that was not our last Goodbye..

until this very moment, i hope you will call me or at least text me

because i believe, we met for a reason.

a reason that either me or you know what it is..

If you came back to me, then it is meant to be.

I'm still waiting for you, there's still a BIG space for you in my hearts.

I do believe in second chances and i think everyone deserves one..

But if you didn't find me after this, i already knew the answers.