My little diary, how mommy miss you so bad..

I'm so sorry that i haven't update you for so long.

Many things happened in my life now

so many ups and downs,

well..thats what they call LIFE

I admitted to this guy about how i like him so bad but it turned out to be a disaster

He makes me feel special, complimenting me all the time

tell me i'm hot, i'm beautiful, i'm awesome, and i'm a weirdo

well, guess what.. he choose his friends over me.

its my fault, i know.

admitted to my guy friends about me having a crush on Dane..

I thought i can trust boys but i was wrong.

I don't know how far he went to make me look like a bitch, a desperate one..

but Mr. Perfectionist, I'm not that kind of girl..

Please trust me, that was before we met..

I thought i can handle myself and be strong but i can't

I cried a lot..

by giving me 'after so much tears' as an excuse is not enough

maybe i shouldn't confess to him about me liking him.

That way, we all be happy.

I miss you, Mr. weirdo, Mr. Perfectionist, Mr. Brown-eyed

:'(

I don't understand!

seriously, i'm in the condition where i'm pretty much depressed .

hard for me to breathe nor move

i'm stucked in the middle of nowhere

and nobody there to help me out

now i know who's my friends and who's my foe..

i thought she knew and let me live

but guess she's just using me..

well, i gotta say bro,

you're just her toys..

so-called transportation for her to go everywhere..

now, who's smart?

she's a gold-digger..

gosh, i never imagined myself living with ones..

why does the 'BEAUTIFUL' always get the attention??

They tell me that i can't , i turned back and said "Watch me"

Can i be called a model now ?

Nobody know

Why i've never born beautiful?

Its hurt everytime people try to make a choice between the pretty and the ugly

I might smile like an idiot outside but Gosh!!

I'm crying inside..

I've tried so hard but they never thanked me,

what kind of person are you?

So Hypocrite.!

Meet my crazy trio !!!

us playing vampire and monster.. LOL.. look at mah face o.O

Sasha feat. Gerl.. lots of HAHA with this bitch..

My beautiful cuzzie,. pretty right?? spontaneously funny..

Hi-tea with them <3

My model wanna-be..

wish the best of luck for u guys :)

xoxo

weird dream or just a coincidence ?

So, i just know this one guy.. seriously caught my attention..

I met him before, just a glimpse when he walks by us..

I'm mad at their gang because i thought they were arrogant..

At first, i didn't even notice him until one day, we saw him at KFC..

OMG!! He's so cool..

i saw him giving us the 'half-smile' and my jaw dropped

unfortunately, 

he already got a girl </3

I send him friend requests on Facebook long ago

but he ignored..

I became more pissed.. Guess i'm not noticed by him..

so i deleted my request and add him AGAIN

(how stupid , right ??)

and guess what?? he accepted me!!

and my whole world starts to feel beautiful, like a beginning of spring..

butterflies everywhere, flowers blooming, colourful clothes..

(i confused.. is it spring or autumn since my country only have summer. but yeah, whatever

I'm a stupid bitch anyway)

He posted on my wall and likes my picture and comments..

(Hey Mr.. i caught you stalking here..hehe)

and for the past 2 days, i always have a dream about a guy..

treat me like a real princess, holding my hands, kiss my fore head

and looking at me while i'm sleeping..

nahh..its just a dream anyway..

and ONE MORE BIG COINCIDENCE!!!!

he broke up with his girlfriend 

and i read my zodiac and said my ideal couple born on June..

you guess it.. correct!!!

he's born on June..

Coincidence?? 

I hope so..

xoxo