BL cream review

Okay guys, so today, i'm gonna do a review on this infamous BL creams amongst asians,

BL is a chinese creams.

What does it do is, it whitens your skins and kills pimples including acne.

It does turns my skin very fair and i satisfied with the results..

BEFORE BL

AFTER BL ( Non-edit, no filter )

Quite interesting huh?! calm down! There's side effects!

at first, it really does effective.. just 1+ months, i managed to 'bleached' my skin but once you stop using this products,

stubborn acne and pimples will appear..

the moment you start using it again, it doesn't effective anymore..

i stopped using them about 1 weeks and it didn't effective anymore, i kinda sad, my acne became severe

and i got no solutions on them up until now.

This products costs about RM10.00 including day cream.

You can only use this cream on nighttime, before bed and use the day cream the whole day.

i didn't suggest this product because i've learnt my lessons 

but if you wanna try, then go..

My 20 wishlist for christmas

It's october and i know its still early for me to say this but i do have 

wishlist of what i want for christmas.

December is coming faster than we ever imagine, so..

buckle up!!

15 things i want:

1) Urban Decay Naked palette

2) I want a new phone, Samsung Galaxy III

3) Bohemian dress <3

4) Victoria Secret's perfume

5) Mango t-shirt

6) Etude House makeup set

7) a huge/ gigantic/ enormous teddy bear

8) new pair of heels

9) new hair colour

10) Dermalogica's products

11) A driving license

12) All mnm's blouse, peplums, and chiffon blouse

13) new phone case

14) a cd full of my favourite songs of all time

15) A new laptop

5 non-things that i want

1) family business to run smoothly

2) Good health for my parents and grandparents

3) my sister's happiness

4) get accept by SPA8, as a medical assistant

5) someone special for me to share the happiness of christmas

May God bless me and all of my wish, i know that all of this is almost impossible but i hope some of them will become a reality. AMEN to that !

Kiss and make out

Hello my blog,

its been awhile huh..

so, today, another personal and private sharing..

I'm gonna talk about how and why me and my besties get back together again..

If you follow me since the beginnings, you will know that we've been fight and argue about some stupid randoms shits,

and yes, we haven't talk for more than a half year..

yup.. this shit serious..

we ignore each other until we forgot the reason we fighting for..

so, to make things clear,. i humbly add her on Wechat and swallow my ego to say sorry to her..

its because i miss her and i need some peace, we are family and there's no reason for us to hate each other,

past is past.. whats important now is my future..

after this, some idiots will judge me for swallowing my own spits, but i don't care..

It's my choice, it's my life..

try spending a day walking in my shoes, then you'll know how miserable my life is,

and how hard i have to survive a day without pain..

all i wanna say is, 

you can talk anything about me, i don't give a damn..

remember, God sees everything..

Update with me

Hello, its been awhile since i updated my Blog.

Today, I'm not gonna share any tips on how or what,

Today, i'm just gonna share about my personal life,

what have been on my mind, what have been bothering me for the past few days.

It's hard for me to say what's on my mind because no one's there to listen to me,

I cried but no one sees my tears,

I plead, but no one understands.. I know, its worthless if i wrote all this on my Blog but hey,

I feel a little burden had been lift from my shoulder.

So, the past few days, i dreamt about my ex,

I thought i've moved on but i guess i was wrong all the time,

I'm still hoping that some fine day he will find me,

dreaming about him, about how he used to love me

kills me deep inside.

Yesterday, by coincidence, i accidently walk pass him.

I didn't realize at first but my sister told me,

i got shivers all over me and cold sweats running down my forehead..

my hands shaking, but my sister told me to calm the fuck down so i did..

i pretending not seeing him, i laugh at my sisters, faking a smiles so he thought i was happy.

Seriously, i feel like a part of me was die at that time, 

I admit it, I miss you so bad.

I have to act like i'm cool and put my egos up high so that you realize what you've lost.

I lose my mood after you walk.

Suddenly, an unexpectedly text that i've been waiting for my whole life.

YES!!! a text from you, my dear.

I guess me and my sister's plans finally worked.

I act ego, like always

and i can feel that you still care and love me.

That last texts, you said Bye to me and ask me to always take care.

I hope that was not our last Goodbye..

until this very moment, i hope you will call me or at least text me

because i believe, we met for a reason.

a reason that either me or you know what it is..

If you came back to me, then it is meant to be.

I'm still waiting for you, there's still a BIG space for you in my hearts.

I do believe in second chances and i think everyone deserves one..

But if you didn't find me after this, i already knew the answers.

Straight brow 101

Hey guys.

so, i recently fall in love with Korean celebrity's straight brow.

Here's a few examples of Korean idols that i adore with their straight brow 

and let me tell you guys.. They rockin it !!

DID YOU KNOW ??

having a thick, straight brow makes you look youthful and innocent.

while having an arched brow makes you look mature than your actual age.

To achieve this look, all you need is:-

1) with your razor, defined your upper arch and remove the arch slowly, clean your under brow bone to remove unwanted hair.

2) when you happy with your brow, filling them in with your eyebrow pencils, blend them well using an angle brush or eyebrow brush.

3) Holding the mirror, do the same thing on your other brow.

REMEMBER!!

sometimes, the exact same eyebrow can be too artificial and fake looking, so.. its okay to have a slightly different eyebrow,

Michelle Phan says: Eyebrow are like sisters but they're not twins.

xoxo

Tips on how to move on

Hey guys, i know how suck it feels when you have to face breakups.

I recently being dumped by my boyfriend and i feels like its the end of the world for me.

LOVE

Its whether you happy or sad in the end,

sadly, everything has an end.

I lost my appetite for at least 3 days, i can't smile or laugh..

when i'm alone, i cried myself.. i don't know what's the problem..

I don't know where i did wrong.

But hey!! Head up and pick up your tiara, princess..

You deserve better!!

FIRST STEP:

Throw away all the gifts or stuff that have serious memories of you and your ex.. Let go of the past,

your future awaits!

you will never be able to move on without letting go of the past.

SECOND STEP:

Delete all photos that reminds you of you and your ex.

Its hard at first but you will get used to it later.. Be strong, girl !

THIRD STEP:

Burn all the love letter or notes or write down what you didn't be able to share with other people.

You will feel better after that.

trust me :)

FOURTH STEP:

Call your friends, hangout with them. Have fun.. explore the world.

FIFTH STEP:

find new passion/ hobbies.

Find something that makes you happy and forget about your pain.

Last but never the least, keep smiling girl!

YOU are BEAUTIFUL !!

its no use of crying over someone who doesn't deserve you..

Don't waste your tears for someone who left you, instead,

feel blessed because everything happens for a reason..

someone who came in your life is whether a lessons or a blessings 

xoxo

Natural anti acne mask & Whitening overnight mask

Hello Bellaholics, today, i'm gonna show you how to make the most natural and inexpensive beauty treatment for your skin..

it has been my secret for a long time but hey!! its not a secret anymore..

Lets begin with the ingredients :-

1 spoon of honey

1 spoon of cinnamon powder

Juice of  1 lemon

1 spoon of turmeric powder

Whitening overnight mask:

Mix all the ingredients in a bowl to form a paste.

when you happy with the paste, keep the paste in a small container.

This paste will last longer.

Apply to your face and left them overnight.

When you wash your face in the morning, dab some water to the mask and scrub your face gently to remove blackheads

Don't worry about the yellowness from the turmeric powder, it will not turned you face yellowish.

Anti acne mask 

In a clean bowl, add honey and cinnamon.

Mix the two ingredients well to form a thick solutions.

Don't put too much honey or else you gonna end up like a slimy monster!! haha.. i'm just kidding 

Apply to your face with a brush.

Leave it for 10 to 20 minutes. The longer, the better.

Wash your face with warm water and you can feel the difference.

GOOD LUCK !

xoxo

Heartbreaks and ashtrays

Zico Anis,

almost 2 weeks had passed since you left me with severe heartbreaks,

i'm lying if i said i don't miss you,

i'm lying if i told you i will not hate you.

I seems okay, i smile a lot, laugh the most but deep down,

i hurt the most.

The scar you left and empty space in my heart is not 100% cure.

I still remember our first date, i wait for you for 2 hours straight without any complains,

i guess you didn't realize how special you are to me..

and our second date,

at Taman Banjaran crocker,

the way you look at me with your beautiful brown eyes,

i'll melt to the ground, you know..

Remember how we used to pinch each other and how you make my manly voice out when you pinch my arms?

hahaha.. I miss that moment so bad, my dear..

the last hug i gave you before i get out of your car..

remember that?? how could you?

How could you just forget the sweet memories of ours?

And now, i can officially say that i forgive you with all my heart..

even though you didn't say sorry to me,

i know you feel bad for leaving me too..

i knew you so well..

Just 2++ months but you gave me so much to cherish..

Now, no more that someone special that will wish you happy monthsary every 21st..

I hope you still remember that date because i know, i will never forget it..

Thank you for letting me came in your life for a short terms, 

and thank you for making me realize how jerk you are..

Someday, i will find someone special that will hold my hand when we walk side by side,

someone who will hug me from behind to surprise me,

someone who will wait for me, instead of me who will be waiting,

someone who will wait till 12 midnight just to call me and wish happy monthsary.

one thing for sure, that person is not you..

Goodbye forever, my dear Zico

xoxo,

the girl who loves you with all her hearts.

BROKEN HEART

i NEVER LOVED ANYONE WITH MY WHOLE HEART BEFORE..

AND WHAT DID YOU DO ?

YOU LEFT ME, ZICO!!

PART OF ME IS NOW DEAD, SOUL-LESS..

I GAVE MY ALL,

AND YOU JUST PUSHED ME AWAY..

YES, I'M WRITING THIS MY TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY CHEEK..

YOU SHOULD JUST QUIT WHEN YOU HAVE THE CHANCE,

JUST LIKE THE OTHER GUY, YOU NO DIFFERENCE!!!

YOU STOLE MY HEART, YOU CHASED ME, YOU GOT ME AND YOU JUST LEFT.

REMEMBER, KARMA SEE THIS..

I JUST WISHED YOU THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE..

JUST REMEMBER, SOMEDAY, YOU WILL GET MARRIED AND WILL HAVE A DAUGHTER,

YOU'LL REGRETTED IT WHEN YOU WILL BE WIPING TEARS FROM YOUR DAUGHTER'S FACE.

The person i missed a lot

Unnie, bogoshipta..

neomu bogoshipo!!

I just turning 19

19, just 2 years before i am fully legal to do things i've 

been doing since i was 15.. lol.. just kidding.

Mom, Dad.. thanks for your blessings and taking care of me since i am super tender age.

you provide me drinks, foods, clothes and other needs until i am capable enough to stand on my own feet

I promise you, i will appreciate you till the day i die.. i will pay your kindness..

maybe not now but i know, someday, i will..

Thank you for all the bday wishes, it made my day extra specials.

Love you all

xoxo

I miss you

But my trust for you starting to fade away

Unduk Ngadau

Unduk Ngadau Kaamatan is a beauty pageant held during the Kaamatan cultural event in Sabah, Malaysia. The title comes from the ethnic word Runduk Tadau which means 'the girl crowned by the sunlight'.[1] Unduk Ngadau is one of the most recognizable cultural events in Sabah and the beauty pageant is unique to the state. In Rungus Language, Runduk means "to communicate", and Tadau means "the Sun", therefore Unduk Ngadau translates to communicate with Sundu(Kinorohingan) or God asking for blessing of sunlight.

The Unduk Ngadau beauty contest was to served as a memorial to Huminodun, the sacrificed daughter of the Kadazandusun spirits, Kinorohingan and Suminundu. It is believed that she taught the priestesses known locally as Bobohizan their ritual mantras which exist today.

Sabah Games ( SAGA ) 2013

2nd June 2013..

 me and my biatch went to KK to 'witness' SAGA opening ceremony

We came there just to support the Vbol Team but yet

we've been ask to join the parade 

so basically we are one of them.. as they said..

In the bus with cyline <3

From left:

Salina, Kurin, Cyline, Me and Silla

The craziest yet my very good friend.

It was fun although we are super tired with the long journey..

well, live while we're young, right ?

we are living it now..

My new passion and my new family